How I Feel

I thought it would be good to spend a little more time thinking about love. So many things today have reminded me of how loved I am and how much I love other people. Maybe it is all the pink and red and hearts that seem to be everywhere, or maybe I am sticking to my resolutions and in my own way, finding a happy place that seems more rosy and lovely, but I am in love with life. And I am in love with love. And while I still am a ways off from falling in love with the idea of being in love, I could see that state of bliss would have its uses.

It is rare for me to speak from the heart, as I am so used to just speaking from the head. I am used to thinking about and analyzing and wondering, instead of just feeling. Probably because in the past. I have found that just feeling leads to a whole lot of trouble and very little reward. Yet, today, right now, I just feel. Because I feel happy for what the first time in what seems like a very long time. I have picked myself up and decided to become a little more carefree with my life, and with it has this incredible sense of well-being, if not being well.

I am finding that I am not only happy, but I am also feel a bit more positive. I am feeling like my outlook on life is sky high, instead of down in the dumps. I am not sure why, I am not sure how, but for now, I am happy to ride the feel good train and experience that sense of self-satisfaction that reminds me what a lovely person I am; what a lovely person I have become and what a lovely person I have yet to be.