
I know about power games. I know that there are those who are meant to wield power, meant to be the ones who dominate and order others around, but at the same time, I also understand that those who are subservient - those who are dominated - are the ones who are truly powerful. They are the ones who can make things stop, they are the ones who hold the key to letting someone else live out a fantasy, a desire, and thus, hold the power.
So what happens if dominance is thrust upon you? What if someone made you play a role - unwillingly, unwantedly - and took the power inherent in such a role away? What does it mean to be dominated against one's will? What does it mean - if it's just a joke, just a game; can someone foist their intentions on to you as much as they can force a role?
I wish I knew the answers to this. I wish I could figure it out. And I can't. I can understand - I can take perspective, I can see when something was meant in jest. But I can not divorce my memories from my feelings. I can not make my mind think differently, because to think is to remember anger, hurt, lack of respect, loss of trust, and an overall sense of wrong - being wrong, being wronged.
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